Simplifying My Life

One flaw I've noticed with myself is that I overshare way too many details of my life with aquantanices. I confuse being friendly with friendship. When I have terrible anxiety, I want to talk about my problem over and over and over until I'm convinced that everything will be OK. I haven't been to therapy in a long time because I feel guilty to take any time away from home after work, but I need to go to talk with my paid friend verses talking with everyone else. On the other hand when I'm down, I'm so down I don't want to tell anyone because I feel like such a bother. I feel that nothing anyone can say will bring me out of the dark hole I'm in. I need to learn and practice when I should and should not talk.

I'm trying to be more aware of what I am bringing into our home, and to me that includes the hygiene products I use. The first item I bought to change the products I usually use was a safety razor. I found out about them by researching ways to save money and to use less plastic. I was also in search of a reusable, inexpensive razor because I am sometimes an irresponsible parent and just forget to buy razors for my kid because I forget that she shaves too! I can let myself go so I don't care if I don't by razors for a while, but she still needs them! This company sends out a pack of ten blades with a razor purchase, so I knew we'd be good on shaving supplies for a while! There's a website that sells them called Life Without Plastic, but their safety razors were pretty expensive. I was willing to pay the price if it is worth the investment, but then I stumbled across a company called Albatross Design's Shave Shop and their razors are only $20! Also a pack of re...

Recently at work I was teased for some dress pants I was wearing. I have had the same dress pants, all five of them, for seven years. Two officers that are on our campus joked saying my pants were really long and were going to soak up all the rain. "Eh yeah they are...thanks," was all I could think to reply. I admit, I've never been super lavish when it comes to how I dress. Things like the hem coming undone (the case with these pants) have never been a big deal to me. My long unhemmed pants  I forget that we are judged by what we wear, until it happens. One time I was wearing sweats and a bandana while shopping for a mattress. I have tattoos on one arm and I wore my hoop earrings that day. I wasn't treated very well by the man who worked there as I probably looked intimidating. It's times like that I wish I could give them my resume to show I'm not what they expect. Growing up we wore uniforms to school and didn't shop for clothes much. My mo...

I went to my parents' house today to visit. I also went over because some of our (my oldest daughter and I) stuff is still there. I thought I had been doing a pretty good job to taking stuff from their house, but there is always a container or two more for me to look though. The last container I took from there was brought to my house and haven't looked at it since. This time I decided to go through two containers right then and there so I wouldn't have to take a lot home with me and so it wouldn't end up sitting in my garage for months. I'm glad I opened it there because there were a few items that were my mom's and sister's. The other items were my oldest daughter's. I gave away a few things that were her's, but I did also keep some of it. I have the hardest time getting rid of the girls' stuff still, and I am really hoping this course I'm taking will help with that. This week I had a panic attack about a dress I had given to my frie...